Under The Clouds: Act I, Chapter 1, Scene 1b
Time really flies and it’s Tuesday already. I felt like there should be one more day to the week so one more drawing for the post but I can only claim one completed drawing relating to Under The Clouds.
It took me quite awhile to layer Blender renders into Photoshop to draw. Originally I planned 3 drawings for the first scene with the bird but decided to add one more and make it 4 for a smoother motion. Laying out little houses from a rotated angle has proven to be time consuming. Below is a finished set up in Photoshop using Blender rendered images and also for a future drawing following the above.
I have been drawing and posting for about 2 and a half years. In this brief time of growing up as an artist, I have realized that drawing is therapy. I sometimes feel what it is like stifling of my innards when I am not occupied or have not been drawing for an extensive period. I felt it intensely when modeling in Blender nearing a week. I thought it might be a good idea to combat that by doing some quick figure sketches all the while further strengthening my skill in figure drawing especially clothing folds. It worked for awhile until it did not. Then a thought flashed past and made me ponder perhaps what I am feeling is that … I am insecure.
Upon awakening an uncomfortable truth, I pushed back all my plans and spent the entire Saturday afternoon on a portrait that I abandoned a month ago. Sometimes I try too had and it reflects on my drawings.
Examples of drawings when I am trying too hard.
Those are not necessarily bad artworks but how I draw fluctuates. I often chase after what’s perceived as “good” or what’s popular, and in the process of running after what’s not mine, I slumped into a pit of uncertainties about myself.
Examples of drawings when I feel confident.
Those are not necessarily better drawings but they are consistent. One thing for sure is that those are more creative and have a better focus.
Perhaps with more experience, I will become less insecure. I just hope it won’t tarnish Under The Clouds. Perhaps time can heal, and positivity and mild optimism will help. Although I don’t know what exactly caused (or causes) it nor how to dispel it, I am happy that I learned it sooner than later and with that understanding in mind, I am able to adjust and manage it.
I am planning to finish the scene with the bird and end scene 1 by introducing the protagonist by next post. Thank you for reading and please stay mentally healthy.